Monthly Archives: February 2015

My Fat Story

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Encouraged by Tabitha over at Meet Penny, I wanted to share with you my fat story.

I have been overweight my entire adult life.

I didn’t start out that way.  As a teenager I wasn’t overweight, even though I thought I was soooo fat.  {At that time I was 5ft 7in and weighed 135 pounds.}  Add in a sedentary lifestyle, some really bad emotional eating habits, little to no exercise, absolutely no will power and about ten years and guess what you get?  An overweight, unhappy person who is very much in denial about what was happening to my own body.

The denial lasted a few years.  I had gone through a divorce and had no idea what to do with my life.  Did I mention I was an emotional eater?  Yeah, I didn’t even know what that was at the time.  Denial to the bitter end, I guess.

I eventually woke up and realized I needed to make some changes in my life.  I was in my mid twenties and weighed about 215 pounds.  So I joined a gym.  My job at the time was more active as well.  I began to eat more nutritious things and watched my food portions.  I got fit.  I got remarried.  I was so proud of myself.  I didn’t get anywhere close to the 135 pounds I was from the high school years, but I was happy with the direction I was heading.  I had shed about 45 pounds and countless inches.

And then I got pregnant.

And for some reason I used that as an excuse to eat whatever I wanted.  Blue Bell Dutch Chocolate ice cream was my favorite snack.  I stopped exercising as hard — what if it wasn’t good for the baby??  I’d had a miscarriage before.  I didn’t want another one.  And so I slowly stopped exercising altogether.  Unfortunately, I was still eating like I was exercising.  Oh and don’t forget, I could also use the excuse that I was eating for two!

By the time I delivered a healthy, happy 6lb little girl I had gained 60 pounds.  (If you’re doing the math, that’s 230 pounds.)  I was miserable.  I didn’t want to take any pictures of myself with my sweet little baby.  I hated that I had gotten to this point.  Oh, don’t worry, friends said.  The weight just melts off while you’re breastfeeding.

It didn’t.

I breastfed for a year didn’t lose a pound besides the weight I lost immediately postpartum.  So at this point I’m 220 pounds and in denial again.  I hated the way I looked but I didn’t do anything to change it.  I don’t know why.  I think I had a bit of PPD (I am prone to bouts of depression).  I was a full time homemaker by now.  My dream job.  What I’d always wanted to do for my whole life.

And I wasn’t happy.

I was happy on the outside.  And I did — and still do — enjoy my job very much.  I wouldn’t trade my time at home for anything.  But on the inside I was a mess.  I was so caught up in denial about what I was doing to my body.

I blamed everyone but myself for the way I was.  My parents didn’t teach me about nutritious eating and exercise.  It’s my body’s fault; I have a slow metabolism.  My husband loves me just the way I am.  I’ve tried to lose weight and I just can’t.  Why can she eat whatever she wants and not gain an ounce?  It’s just not fair.

I did exercise some.  And I did eat healthy.  Sometimes.  I did just enough so when the scale wouldn’t budge — or moved the wrong direction — I would get angry, frustrated and just give up.  Any excuse to not have to really try.

Eighteen months after giving birth the first time I was pregnant again.  This time I was sick with “morning” sickness for about five months but I still gained 25 pounds.  By the time I delivered my son I weighed 252 pounds.  The most I have ever weighed in my life.

Surely breastfeeding would work this time around! I thought.  But it didn’t, even though I breastfed even longer this time.  I’d had to have a Cesarean with my boy and used that as an excuse not to “exert” myself.  When I finally stopped breastfeeding (less than a year ago) I didn’t have any more excuses.

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I’m in my mid-thirties.  I can’t blame anyone but myself for the way I am.  I know how to eat.  I know that I need to exercise.  I know how to take care of myself.  I just make excuses why I can’t.  Yes, I’m busy.  So is everyone else on the planet.  Yes, I have a slow metabolism.  So what?  Get over it and keep moving forward.  Yes, it’s more expensive to eat healthy.  So are the medical bills if I don’t eat healthy.

I started exercising a little more.  Eating a little better.  And very, VERY slowly the weight has started coming off.

It’s now a little more than two years since I gave birth to my son and almost a year since I stopped breastfeeding.  My weight now is 212 pounds.

I set a goal this year to lose between two and three pounds a month.  No, it’s not up to Biggest Loser standards.  But it is realistic and it is doable.  And I feel good about it.

So if you’re reading this and you’re on your own weight loss journey — or if you’ve completed your journey — please let me know about it.  We all need some motivation from time to time.  I plan on sharing my progress along the way.  I hope my transparency will encourage others who may be in my shoes.

If you have been thinking about it but haven’t yet done anything about it yet, may I encourage you to just do it?  Start small.  Join a support group.  Ask a friend to go walking with you.  Give up desserts for a week.  Drink enough water for your body.  Just do something to improve your health.

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February Meal Plans

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A whole month into the new year!  I’m sure these months have started passing by more quickly in recent years…. but maybe that just comes with getting older. 😉

But no matter how quickly time passes the amount of meals we eat stays the same!  I’ve been trying to eat more simple, wholesome meals and snacks (and the scale is finally moving in the right direction — slowly).  Freezer meals are always on my go-to list to help me on those crazy, chaotic days.  Have you tried freezer cooking?  I hate the prep work and cook day but love to reap the rewards later!

 

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February Meal Planning

Sunday, February 1
Breakfast:  breakfast burrito or blueberry muffins
Lunch:  with extended family
Supper:  with extended family

Monday, February 2
Breakfast:  toasted whole wheat English muffin with chicken breast and sharp cheddar cheese
Lunch:  tuna salad (can of tuna, half cup low fat cottage cheese, shredded carrots, minced red onion, dill weed, pepper) with whole wheat crackers or bread
Supper:  bangers and mash (made with turkey sausage)

Tuesday, February 3
Breakfast:  Special K Protein cereal mixed with bran flakes
Lunch:  scrambled egg sandwich
Supper:  whole wheat spaghetti with turkey meat sauce

Wednesday, February 4
Breakfast:  protein smoothie (banana, strawberries, blueberries, protein powder, soy milk)
Lunch:  salad with fajita chicken on top
Supper:  leftover spaghetti

Thursday, February 5
Breakfast:  Special K Protein cereal mixed with bran flakes
Lunch:  veggie omelet
Supper:  baked cod, mashed potatoes

Friday, February 6
Breakfast:  toasted whole wheat English muffin with chicken breast and sharp cheddar cheese
Lunch:  homemade pizza ~ turkey pepperoni, turkey sausage, onions, bell peppers, mushrooms, black olives
Supper:  breakfast ~ scrambled eggs, turkey bacon, hashbrowns

Saturday, February 7
Breakfast:  whole wheat waffles, turkey bacon
Lunch:  veggie burger patty with veggie stir fry
Supper:  burrito pie

Sunday, February 8
Breakfast:  breakfast burrito or blueberry muffin
Lunch:  with extended family
Supper:  with extended family

Monday, February 9
Breakfast:  protein smoothie (banana, strawberries, blueberries, protein powder, soy milk)
Lunch:  salad with fajita chicken on top
Supper:  salmon patties

Tuesday, February 10
Breakfast:  toasted whole wheat English muffin with chicken breast and sharp cheddar cheese
Lunch:  leftovers
Supper:  beef and veggie stew, homemade bread

Wednesday, February 11
Breakfast:  Special K Protein cereal mixed with bran flakes
Lunch:  chicken salad (shredded chicken breast; diced celery, carrots, green onion; light Miracle Whip) sandwiches
Supper:  pasta salad

Thursday, February 12
Breakfast:  protein smoothie (banana, strawberries, blueberries, protein powder, soy milk)
Lunch:  leftovers
Supper:  chicken tacos, guacamole, Spanish rice, salsa, sour cream

Friday, February 13
Breakfast:  Special K Protein cereal mixed with bran flakes
Lunch:  homemade pizza
Supper:  breakfast ~ homemade bacon, egg and cheese biscuits

Saturday, February 14
Breakfast:  pancakes, turkey bacon
Lunch:  veggie burger patty with veggie stir fry
Supper:  steak, twice baked potato (hubby’s favorite)

Sunday, February 15
Breakfast:  breakfast burrito or blueberry muffin
Lunch:  with extended family
Supper:  with extended family

Monday, February 16
Breakfast:  toasted whole wheat English muffin with chicken breast and sharp cheddar cheese
Lunch:  “roll-ups” (rolled up deli meat), cheese, crackers
Supper:  sour cream chicken enchiladas, refried beans, Spanish rice

Tuesday, February 17
Breakfast:  protein smoothie (banana, strawberries, blueberries, protein powder, soy milk)
Lunch:  leftovers
Supper:  rissoles

Wednesday, February 18
Breakfast:  Special K Protein cereal mixed with bran flakes
Lunch:  leftovers
Supper:  twice baked taco potatoes

Thursday, February 19
Breakfast:  toasted whole wheat English muffin with chicken breast and sharp cheddar cheese
Lunch:  out with hubby
Supper:  broccoli/leek/potato soup, homemade bread

Friday, February 20
Breakfast:  protein smoothie (banana, strawberries, blueberries, protein powder, soy milk)
Lunch:  homemade pizza
Supper:  breakfast ~ omelets and turkey bacon

Saturday, February 21
Breakfast:  chocolate chip pancakes, turkey bacon
Lunch:  veggie burger patty with veggie stir fry
Supper:  pasta shrimp jambalaya

Sunday, February 22
Breakfast:  breakfast burrito or blueberry muffin
Lunch:  with extended family
Supper:  with extended family

Monday, February 23
Breakfast:  Special K Protein cereal mixed with bran flakes
Lunch:  chicken salad sandwich
Supper:  shepherd’s pie

Tuesday, February 24
Breakfast:  protein smoothie (banana, strawberries, blueberries, protein powder, soy milk)
Lunch:  leftover shepherd’s pie
Supper:  grilled chicken and shrimp stir fry, basmati rice, naan

Wednesday, February 25
Breakfast:  toasted whole wheat English muffin with chicken breast and sharp cheddar cheese
Lunch:  leftover stir fry
Supper:  taco salad

Thursday, February 26
Breakfast:  Special K Protein cereal mixed with bran flakes
Lunch:  out with hubby
Supper:  homemade chicken noodle soup, homemade bread

Friday, February 27
Breakfast:  protein smoothie (banana, strawberries, blueberries, protein powder, soy milk)
Lunch:  homemade pizza
Supper:  breakfast ~ eggs, turkey bacon, toast

Saturday, February 28
Breakfast:  whole wheat waffles, turkey bacon
Lunch:  veggie burger patty with veggie stir fry
Supper:  turkey meatloaf muffins, mashed potatoes

As you probably noticed, I didn’t add any fruit and vegetables — or any sides, really — on this plan.  I generally pull something out of the freezer or pantry to go along with whatever we’re eating.  I try and buy fresh fruit and vegetable that are in season, readily available and (let’s be honest) easy to prepare.  Our go to fruits are bananas, oranges, apples, pears, avocado, blueberries and strawberries.  For veggies we generally rotate between Brussels sprouts, carrots, broccoli, cauliflower, squash,  green beans, spinach, kale (or other greens) and occasionally corn.

I most of the meals here (except the veggie burgers and the ones with added links, of course) are either my recipe or a family recipe.  If you have any questions I’d be happy to try and answer them.  I like to find a good recipe and then “healthify” it.  My auto-correct feature is screaming that healthify isn’t a word, but I think it should be.

Happy, healthy eating!